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» Zack Fair ([personal profile] theheroics) wrote in [community profile] dreamcrystals2023-03-09 08:42 am

A Letter to Home

Sender: Zack Fair
To: All
Subject: No Subject (Backdated to the first week)

[ Words that begin to appear in the journals are written slowly, as if with intent. The handwriting is... coherent at best at this slower pace, but every word is coming in gradually and seemingly with more frustration.

Guess who thinks this is just a plain ol' journal to use?
]

Dear Aeir
What's up!?
Hello! Hey th———

Hey Aerith.
Hope things are going well?? good for you


[ UGH ]

Sorry it's taken so long for me to write back... I know youve been waiting a long time
I can't call right now but soon, okay?
how are the flowers? you swimming in gil yet?
Theirs theres lots of weird stuff going on that I'll explain when I get back.
So... yeah. See you soon
Regard
[ No that was SO STUPID ]
bye

[ The words at the bottom of the page are suddenly cut out, as if completely disregarded or tossed away.

But seconds later another one appears:
]

Hello!

[ Nope that one is gone, too. ]
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-03-18 04:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[With that, Tifa slams her notebook shut and stares at the leather-bound cover for a moment. After the masquerade, she had felt... okay with Zack again. Not fully recovered from what happened, but the two of them could at least hold a conversation without it being so stiflingly awkward. But now, as she remembers those words in his handwriting, she can't help wondering...

After letting Eustace know where she'll be going, Tifa throws on a jacket and her boots and heads out, rushing to the plaza to meet him at the Dreambucks. She'll already be there by the time Zack arrives, seated at a table in the far corner near the window with a cup of tea already cradled in her hands. An inconspicuous spot for whatever it is he needs to tell her, and she waves him down.]
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-03-20 04:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Not at all! Just sat down.

[Her tea is still too hot to sip, so she's just keeping her hands warm for now.]

You wanna grab something to drink first while the line's short? ... Would've grabbed something for you, but I didn't want to make any assumptions.
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-03-26 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[A black coffee is exactly what she would have grabbed for him. It's simple, safe, and anyone can add whatever they like to it, so there's something of a relieved sigh when he returns with one.]

There's a lot, yeah. Even got the fancy drinks.

[It's offered with an unsteady laugh, like she's trying to buy a little time to let her anxiety wear off a little... but it doesn't work. So, she tries another tack—]

... How are you and Cloud settling in, by the way? [The mention of Cloud's name brings a sadder tone to her voice, and she casts her gaze down to her coffee.] Haven't seen either of you since the masquerade.
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-03-31 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[His words make her wonder what it was like for SOLDIER. What kind of living quarters were they given? She saw Aerith's old room, and it left her feeling... sad... and if Zack is "living the dream", as he says, she thinks back to those four walls and how small it felt in comparison to what she was even used to.

...

But the mention of Cloud's name shakes her from that train of thought, and Tifa sips on her tea, letting her laugh die into her cup.]


Not from what I know. We didn't really get to spend much time in Midgar when we found each other again...
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-04 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
[Her eyes peek up from where they'd been staring into her cup, rounding out a touch with surprise.]

He told you, did he...?

[That's a bit surprising. Cloud never was one to share much, but if he told Zack about her, or even about NIbelheim, then maybe that means that she has less to worry about than she thought? Still, it doesn't do much to ease her worries.]

We are, yeah. We were neighbours when we were kids, and after he left for SOLDIER, we didn't see each other again for a while. Not until I found him in Midgar.

[Long story, but—]

After that, it was one thing after another, so he didn't really get the chance to settle in much.
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-05 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, that's...

[True... is what she means to say, but there's something else that Zack says that snatches Tifa's attention and reels it in.]

Wait.

[There's a strange feeling turning over in her stomach right now, and her mind begins to race with a thousand different thoughts of what it could mean.]

He could've done it...? But I thought Cloud was already in SOLDIER...?

[Maybe he's just from a different timeline? Or earlier? That's something that tends to happen a lot around here, isn't it?]
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-08 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
[She mirrors his frown with her own before she answers simply,] Cloud did.

[Yeah. Definitely some weird timeline stuff going on.]

First class and all.

[Though that doesn't answer any of the other questions she's had since she found him in Midgar that night, but she waits with bated breath for what Zack has to say in response to that.]
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-09 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[And just like that, Tifa feels her world shaking underneath her, like the very pillars that hold it all up are being violently chipped away at with no warning, and no time for her to fight back. There are a lot of things that Tifa had been blind to or wrong about in her past, but if there was one thing that she did want to be wrong about, it was this. It was all the things that her gut had been telling her was off.

She tries to keep her expression steady, from showing too much that everything is spinning. Her hands fold between the chair and her legs, Tifa not wanting Zack to see how her fingers are trembling.]


But... that doesn't make any sense. Cloud was a SOLDIER when he left Shinra...? The uniform, and... and the sword. He kept going on about how he was ex-SOLDIER. Talked about how working for Shinra was...

[Tifa's voice falls away when she realizes that no, he hadn't really talked about it at all. When she asked, he dodged her question, and she took it as it being too heavy a topic. Didn't want to poke it any further and make him clam up.]

Are... are you sure? [Now she's not so sure.] Maybe... maybe your memories don't quite add up? Or aren't from the same time? That's happened to me before.
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-12 03:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[Tifa's fingers curl around the edges of her chair, nails digging into the polished wood while she continues to listen, and she feels sick to her stomach. What she had originally thought—no, hoped was the truth continues to crumble. The things she could convince herself were the reasons behind their contradicting timelines and memories were becoming further and further away from her.

The way that he lets that one thought hang doesn't make her feel any better, either, and Tifa's gaze darkens a touch when he moves past it.]


... After what?
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-15 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
[She figured as much... That this conversation wasn't going to be easy the moment that the air shifted. Even before that when he asked to meet with her face to face...

But even as he pleads with her, Tifa maintains a steady, unwavering gaze, although on the inside, everything is still slowly collapsing. She needs to know what happened, and if there is something wrong with Cloud, then she needs to know that, too. She knew that she wasn't crazy—that there was something different about him, something that wasn't "just the mako" swirling in his eyes.

Never mind the headaches that he seems to suffer all the time...

At some point, her hands had moved back to the table where they wrap tightly around her cup, squeezing until the ceramic starts to squeak under the pressure of her grip.

"Thinks" he's a SOLDIER... but to Tifa, he is a SOLDIER... so where is the disconnect?

Though, something else he says grabs her attention again, and this time, she leans forward over the table.]


Shinra Manor? You mean the one in Nibelheim?
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-20 03:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's a very sudden, very loud CRACK as the surface of the table fractures on Tifa's side, and it looks like it's been sliced right through with a flaming hot knife, the old, polished wood now burnt to a crisp, but Tifa hardly blinks.

It's a question of whether her mind is even still there at all. There's a faraway, distant look in her eyes, but the fires that consumed her hometown simmer beneath it as it all takes her back to that night... The night where all their worlds were turned upside down, their lives ruined... Not just Tifa and Cloud's, but Zack's as well, from the sounds of it.

And all that time, Cloud had been there? He was there, and had seen it all unfold? And he never thought to tell her?

Was that why he's been acting so strange around her, and in general?

It's as if she comes to in that moment, her mind and her gaze returning to the present, and she only realizes then that she had broken the table, but she only spares it a quick glance before fixing Zack with an equally confused stare.]


Why didn't he tell me...?

[She waited for him.]

How did he... how did you two get out...?
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-22 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[She's trying so, so hard to make this make sense... to search for any possible solution that she might know about for why nothing is adding up. Timeline shenanigans can be attributed to it, sure, but...]

There's no cure for mako poisoning, is there...?

[No cure for SOLDIERs... Tifa knows that. She heard it straight from President Shinra's mouth in the reactor. Whether or not it was a lie didn't matter, because since then, she's been going on the possibility that it is the cold, hard truth.]
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-04-29 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
[It's making less and less sense as the conversation goes on. Mako poisoning, and the lack of a cure is what bothers her the most. If Zack says the last thing he remembers of Cloud is that, and it's so far from what Tifa knows about him, then what happened in between Nibelheim and Midgar?

Never mind that Cloud had been in Nibelheim that whole time and he never told her. Never stopped to say hi. And then... that capture happened with him and Zack? She wonders if maybe it could have been prevented if she knew... Could she have helped in some way before it went sideways?

She has so many questions, but those ones are better fit for Cloud... when the time is right. Which brings her to her next point...]


He has been acting strange... ever since I found him almost out cold at the train station...

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