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A Letter to Home
Sender: Zack Fair
To: All
Subject: No Subject (Backdated to the first week)
[ Words that begin to appear in the journals are written slowly, as if with intent. The handwriting is... coherent at best at this slower pace, but every word is coming in gradually and seemingly with more frustration.
Guess who thinks this is just a plain ol' journal to use? ]
Dear Aeir
What's up!?
Hello! Hey th———
Hey Aerith.
Hope things are goingwell?? good for you
[ UGH ]
Sorry it's taken so long for me to write back... I know youve been waiting a long time
I can't call right now but soon, okay?
how are the flowers? you swimming in gil yet?
Theirstheres lots of weird stuff going on that I'll explain when I get back.
So... yeah.See you soon
Regard [ No that was SO STUPID ]
bye
[ The words at the bottom of the page are suddenly cut out, as if completely disregarded or tossed away.
But seconds later another one appears: ]
Hello!
[ Nope that one is gone, too. ]
To: All
Subject: No Subject (Backdated to the first week)
[ Words that begin to appear in the journals are written slowly, as if with intent. The handwriting is... coherent at best at this slower pace, but every word is coming in gradually and seemingly with more frustration.
Guess who thinks this is just a plain ol' journal to use? ]
Hey Aerith.
Hope things are going
[ UGH ]
Sorry it's taken so long for me to write back... I know youve been waiting a long time
I can't call right now but soon, okay?
Theirs
So... yeah.
bye
[ The words at the bottom of the page are suddenly cut out, as if completely disregarded or tossed away.
But seconds later another one appears: ]
Hello!
[ Nope that one is gone, too. ]
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After letting Eustace know where she'll be going, Tifa throws on a jacket and her boots and heads out, rushing to the plaza to meet him at the Dreambucks. She'll already be there by the time Zack arrives, seated at a table in the far corner near the window with a cup of tea already cradled in her hands. An inconspicuous spot for whatever it is he needs to tell her, and she waves him down.]
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He'll trot over to her table and give a small wave, surveying the cup and tea she already had. ]
Sorry. Hope you've not been waiting too long? [ She picked out a nice spot, too. Good. Easier to talk this way. ]
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[Her tea is still too hot to sip, so she's just keeping her hands warm for now.]
You wanna grab something to drink first while the line's short? ... Would've grabbed something for you, but I didn't want to make any assumptions.
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[ And with a laugh he steps away for a moment to try and order.
... But in all honesty, he really wished Tifa had.
He stares up at the menu, squinting at the different array of drinks. None of the names really look all that familiar, and the specialty names only seem to confuse him more. A tall? What the hell kind of a size was that?
It's probably taken him a little longer than intended to come back but when he does he has in his hand a simple, small, black cup of coffee. ]
... Think I'm gunna need to read the menu a little longer next time.
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There's a lot, yeah. Even got the fancy drinks.
[It's offered with an unsteady laugh, like she's trying to buy a little time to let her anxiety wear off a little... but it doesn't work. So, she tries another tack—]
... How are you and Cloud settling in, by the way? [The mention of Cloud's name brings a sadder tone to her voice, and she casts her gaze down to her coffee.] Haven't seen either of you since the masquerade.
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The... air did feel a little tense, as if had when he first ran into her. Yet just like before he was determined to ease the tension as much as he could. So, to the response of her first question, the man will lean back into his chair a little, balancing it on its back legs before: ] Not bad, actually! Got my own room, a soft bed to lay on— livin' the dream! [ He pauses with a laugh. ] Guess Cloud was never one for decorating though, huh? The place is still pretty bear.
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...
But the mention of Cloud's name shakes her from that train of thought, and Tifa sips on her tea, letting her laugh die into her cup.]
Not from what I know. We didn't really get to spend much time in Midgar when we found each other again...
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It was strange, too, that she mentioned not seeing Cloud much since they arrived here. Was their relationship really that intense? ]
Sounds like you care for him a lot, though. You two... are friends, right?
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He told you, did he...?
[That's a bit surprising. Cloud never was one to share much, but if he told Zack about her, or even about NIbelheim, then maybe that means that she has less to worry about than she thought? Still, it doesn't do much to ease her worries.]
We are, yeah. We were neighbours when we were kids, and after he left for SOLDIER, we didn't see each other again for a while. Not until I found him in Midgar.
[Long story, but—]
After that, it was one thing after another, so he didn't really get the chance to settle in much.
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Yeah! At least, a little bit. He's not really one for opening up about his feelings or anything— [ A brief pause. ] —but he's a really determined, if nothing else! He was always mentioning how badly he wanted to be in SOLDIER, and pretty sure he could've done it, too.
[ Geez, these two were complicated, weren't they? ]
Midgar's a pretty big place, so I suppose that makes sense. But hey- just means you can reconnect here!
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[True... is what she means to say, but there's something else that Zack says that snatches Tifa's attention and reels it in.]
Wait.
[There's a strange feeling turning over in her stomach right now, and her mind begins to race with a thousand different thoughts of what it could mean.]
He could've done it...? But I thought Cloud was already in SOLDIER...?
[Maybe he's just from a different timeline? Or earlier? That's something that tends to happen a lot around here, isn't it?]
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... Wait, something wasn't right here.
He frowns, his own brow quirking up. ] ... Did someone tell you that?
[ He's not going to avoid the question entirely, but getting some context would be helpful. ]
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[Yeah. Definitely some weird timeline stuff going on.]
First class and all.
[Though that doesn't answer any of the other questions she's had since she found him in Midgar that night, but she waits with bated breath for what Zack has to say in response to that.]
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Nothing was adding up at all. Why would Cloud have told her that? Maybe it was a pride thing… or maybe it was something else. Something that poked at the back of his mind when he reflected back to seeing Cloud for the first time here.
He already didn’t remember Zack in the first place, so he was already convinced the man’s memories were a little out of place. Maybe though, with Tifa’s help, she could clear a few things up and provide answers in the gaps that he was missing…
But he couldn’t know what had to be be done without at least telling her the truth first.
…
Zack eventually winces under his thoughts before shaking his head. ] When I first met Cloud he was in the infantry, and was there until the two of us left Shinra.
[ the words left a bad taste in his mouth. He didn’t feel right talking about Cloud or his business when he wasn’t around… but without knowing exactly what was going on with him, Zack would have no help of trying to find a solution. ]
There weren’t many of us in First Class… only a handful, actually. But unfortunately Cloud wasn’t one of ‘em…
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She tries to keep her expression steady, from showing too much that everything is spinning. Her hands fold between the chair and her legs, Tifa not wanting Zack to see how her fingers are trembling.]
But... that doesn't make any sense. Cloud was a SOLDIER when he left Shinra...? The uniform, and... and the sword. He kept going on about how he was ex-SOLDIER. Talked about how working for Shinra was...
[Tifa's voice falls away when she realizes that no, he hadn't really talked about it at all. When she asked, he dodged her question, and she took it as it being too heavy a topic. Didn't want to poke it any further and make him clam up.]
Are... are you sure? [Now she's not so sure.] Maybe... maybe your memories don't quite add up? Or aren't from the same time? That's happened to me before.
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A dark, deep pit forms in the bottom of his stomach, making it difficult to swallow. He doesn't want to remember what happened a year ago, yet even the small glimpses back into the past feel as if it happened yesterday.
Zack breathes through his emotions before lowing his gaze to the soft as he speaks softly. ]
The uniform. I... I gave that to him. It was a change of clothes... it was the only thing I could find after— [ after that.
Should he tell Tifa? Did she even know? Shinra did keep a tight lip about what they were doing, but knowing that it effected Cloud in such a way... that he ended up like this.
He wanted to vomit.
His head deepens into his chest, hands clenching his forearms. ] Cloud actually looks a little older. I don't really know how...
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The way that he lets that one thought hang doesn't make her feel any better, either, and Tifa's gaze darkens a touch when he moves past it.]
... After what?
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Tifa, this isn't the easiest thing to talk about— [ There's a small plea in his voice, something of a small whimper that chokes him back from forming a proper sentence. But he's trying, and he knows she has more questions to ask. He just... doesn't know how to formulate it all into thought.
Finally, after a long period of sentence he focused himself to try and continue. Voice dripping with regret. ]
Something happened to Cloud that really messed him up down there. It... it could be the reason he think he's SOLDIER, or why he doesn't even remember who I am...
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But even as he pleads with her, Tifa maintains a steady, unwavering gaze, although on the inside, everything is still slowly collapsing. She needs to know what happened, and if there is something wrong with Cloud, then she needs to know that, too. She knew that she wasn't crazy—that there was something different about him, something that wasn't "just the mako" swirling in his eyes.
Never mind the headaches that he seems to suffer all the time...
At some point, her hands had moved back to the table where they wrap tightly around her cup, squeezing until the ceramic starts to squeak under the pressure of her grip.
"Thinks" he's a SOLDIER... but to Tifa, he is a SOLDIER... so where is the disconnect?
Though, something else he says grabs her attention again, and this time, she leans forward over the table.]
Shinra Manor? You mean the one in Nibelheim?
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... Sorry Cloud, he'll apologize to you later. Really, and sincerely. ]
That's the one. [ He admits, scoffing sadly as he peers back down to his drink. ] Cloud came with me and Sephiroth on that last mission... he was one of the infantry men on the tour with us.
[ His shoulders hunch down as he continues, voice dripping with regret as he spoke. ] He seemed nervous the entire time, though. Figured you two had some history he didn't wanna talk about, so 'course I didn't pry, but... yeah.
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It's a question of whether her mind is even still there at all. There's a faraway, distant look in her eyes, but the fires that consumed her hometown simmer beneath it as it all takes her back to that night... The night where all their worlds were turned upside down, their lives ruined... Not just Tifa and Cloud's, but Zack's as well, from the sounds of it.
And all that time, Cloud had been there? He was there, and had seen it all unfold? And he never thought to tell her?
Was that why he's been acting so strange around her, and in general?
It's as if she comes to in that moment, her mind and her gaze returning to the present, and she only realizes then that she had broken the table, but she only spares it a quick glance before fixing Zack with an equally confused stare.]
Why didn't he tell me...?
[She waited for him.]
How did he... how did you two get out...?
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He understands. He knows how difficult it must have been for Tifa and everyone else waiting for them. To be left out in the dark for so long...
Zack wished he had more answers, but a lot of what was left was between her and Cloud. He was never one to really open up about his emotions, but something was telling him there something deeper between the two of them. All he could do now was ease her mind about what he did know... and even that was hard to explain. ]
I'm sorry, Tifa... [ Was all he could manage to breathe out at her frustration. ]
I managed to break out and take Cloud with me, but by then... years had gone by. We were stuck there getting poked and prodded or whatever the hell those Shinra scientists do. But Cloud he- [ His face hardens. Hands clenched at his thighs and tightening his grip on his pants. ] -he couldn't handle all that mako. Couldn't even walk, let alone talk to me.
[ Mako poisoning. Zack was able to withstand it, given the amount used to becoming SOLDIER, but- ]
We became fugitives. On the run all the way up until I woke up here.
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There's no cure for mako poisoning, is there...?
[No cure for SOLDIERs... Tifa knows that. She heard it straight from President Shinra's mouth in the reactor. Whether or not it was a lie didn't matter, because since then, she's been going on the possibility that it is the cold, hard truth.]
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At least not that I know of. Think you can only really get better with time, but that stuff doesn't exactly wash away. [ A pause, his voice rough. ] I hadn't seen Cloud since he "recovered", but now he's acting a little strange. Guess I can't blame 'em, though...
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Never mind that Cloud had been in Nibelheim that whole time and he never told her. Never stopped to say hi. And then... that capture happened with him and Zack? She wonders if maybe it could have been prevented if she knew... Could she have helped in some way before it went sideways?
She has so many questions, but those ones are better fit for Cloud... when the time is right. Which brings her to her next point...]
He has been acting strange... ever since I found him almost out cold at the train station...
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we can prob wrap this here! (so I can hit up your other post hehe)
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