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Entry tags:
fifth entry ⊗ first dream: only in a dream
Sender: Eustace
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death makes for a sad ending to an otherwise happy dream (no violent acts but there is a lot of heavy grief)
Notes: A dream depicting glimpses of a lone wolf at various stages of his life and eventually forming his own family until...
[It's there that the dream will cut off as Eustace jolts awake.
Note: there will be some delay before Eustace responds but he'll at least be of...somewhat calm mind if a bit more reticent and giving shorter, curt answers. ]
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death makes for a sad ending to an otherwise happy dream (no violent acts but there is a lot of heavy grief)
Notes: A dream depicting glimpses of a lone wolf at various stages of his life and eventually forming his own family until...
It begins with a vast snowy white landscape, so empty and barren save for a few bundles of trees that appear here and there. Atop a barren cliff lays a lone silver gray wolf, its right eye slightly scarred at its brow as if it had been burned, but it's subtle, just barely noticeable under the tufts of fur. As the wolf slowly opens its eyes, the right eye is a little duller compared to the bright blue of the left. But it can see just as well and it tracks the sudden movement below—of other wolves crossing the snowy plains, a few of them playing around and running freely with each other.
It seems warmer down there, welcoming...yet the lone wolf remains at his perch, turning his head away as ice forms around him.
Time passes and what was once a barren snowscape has changed, pockets of grass and more trees poking through the snow. The wolf is now on the ground watching the others play around, but while he keeps his distance every so often one approaches to shove its head against his side, as if pushing the wolf to the group. The wolf grumbles, pinning his ears and baring his fangs...but he never attacks. Instead two smaller ones appear, one with blue tinted fur and another and orange red, and it's with their help that the lone wolf moves and is brought into the fold. There other wolves run out to greet him, each with their own distinct markings. The lone wolf still doesn't really participate, but he stays within the group, watching...and slowly his tail sways from one side to the other.
Like stop motion the trees grow, the grass spreads, and the number of wolves grow. The once lone wolf still doesn't really participate with their antics, but he appears calmer and more relaxed. He mostly stays on the edge, but he wanders through to be with the others, even letting the younger ones "tussle" with him. The cliff he once inhabited has turned into a mossy green and he hasn't returned to it in a long while. But when he looks out, there's a new wolf beyond the pack—black, female, with deep red eyes. He's wary at first, but she's welcomed into the fold like everyone else who has come through. When she passes by him, his eyes follow her, the scent of flowers lingering.
Once more time passes and the scenes pass quickly, all focused on the black wolf. Of her bothering the gray wolf and sticking to his side. Of her crying and he comforting her. Of him chasing and cornering her. Of quiet moments of them together. With each one, more snow disappears and the feeling of spring grows with the warm atmosphere, and his voice whispers in the breeze as each snapshot passes through.

The two wolves race through the snow, a black and silver blur leaving flowers in their wake.
Around their necks are matching necklaces: a metal dog tag and glowing charm, the moon on the black wolf and a star on the gray. They continue into the forest of trees, through a flower field bursting with colors—the sunlight dancing over them as petals swirl around them as the two wolves continue to frolic and play with each other, the remaining ice that had once surrounded the gray wolf completely melted away. Eventually they stop to rest against each other, and as he looks over at his mate, his blue eyes shine in a way they never have before. Soft, gentle, completely in love. Slowly they close, wrapped up in that beautiful bliss...
...And when they open, he finds himself staring at two small pairs of eyes, one red, one blue, their coats a darker gray. The pups' tails wag eagerly in the air as they bark.
At first he's confused—
Who's dad?? But he hears the soft laugh and as he's shoved over onto the side by the pups, he looks over to see the black wolf sitting nearby with a smile, her red eyes shining in delight.
Understanding crashes into him like a tidal wave, and while something in the back of his mind tries to warn him, there's a burst of light, the ground overflowing with flowers as he laughs and plays with the pups. His pups.
His family.
Things go by in a blur. Spending lazy days together, meeting and venturing with the original pack. It seems as if it all could end peacefully like this. ...But then there's a low rumble overhead, dark shadows overtaking the once sunny area. As lightning cracks high overhead as if to shatter the once picturesque sky, the pups whine and hide beneath his legs. It's just a storm and yet there's a chill in the air that causes every single hair to stand on end. One that makes them run, run before the darkness engulfs them, run to their home where they would be safe. But—
—the thought blares through his mind as they dash into the cave and everything goes dark.
Rain falls. It beats on the gray wolf who sits with his head hung low, his once vibrant blue eyes dull and lifeless, tears now ice frozen on his fur. In fact there's no color at all—it's all white, gray, and black. In front of him is the black wolf lying on her side, eyes closed. A dark pool spreads beneath her lifeless body, flecks of red breaking through the monochrome. Her necklace lies in shattered pieces, the beautiful glowing moon crushed, dull. Beside him the pups whine and try to move him, but he doesn't budge. He can't. The weight of loss chains him down—
Slowly he falls forward, his head landing lightly just above hers. As the rain turns to the snow, ice crackles and forms around him. At first he still hears the pups, but when he slowly cranes his neck he can see them fade away, disappearing into the ether. Because they were never real to begin with.
They never can be real, a dark voice whispers as the snow continues to slowly bury him. None of this is.
No longer is he a wolf, but Eustace cradling Tifa's lifeless body as it slowly disappears, the snow and ice almost completely covering him as the voice becomes heavier and more oppressive as it continues.
When you wake up, you will forget it all like you did before. When she wakes up she will leave you for another.
A dream. This is all just a dream.
All it ever will be.

Time passes and what was once a barren snowscape has changed, pockets of grass and more trees poking through the snow. The wolf is now on the ground watching the others play around, but while he keeps his distance every so often one approaches to shove its head against his side, as if pushing the wolf to the group. The wolf grumbles, pinning his ears and baring his fangs...but he never attacks. Instead two smaller ones appear, one with blue tinted fur and another and orange red, and it's with their help that the lone wolf moves and is brought into the fold. There other wolves run out to greet him, each with their own distinct markings. The lone wolf still doesn't really participate, but he stays within the group, watching...and slowly his tail sways from one side to the other.
Like stop motion the trees grow, the grass spreads, and the number of wolves grow. The once lone wolf still doesn't really participate with their antics, but he appears calmer and more relaxed. He mostly stays on the edge, but he wanders through to be with the others, even letting the younger ones "tussle" with him. The cliff he once inhabited has turned into a mossy green and he hasn't returned to it in a long while. But when he looks out, there's a new wolf beyond the pack—black, female, with deep red eyes. He's wary at first, but she's welcomed into the fold like everyone else who has come through. When she passes by him, his eyes follow her, the scent of flowers lingering.
Once more time passes and the scenes pass quickly, all focused on the black wolf. Of her bothering the gray wolf and sticking to his side. Of her crying and he comforting her. Of him chasing and cornering her. Of quiet moments of them together. With each one, more snow disappears and the feeling of spring grows with the warm atmosphere, and his voice whispers in the breeze as each snapshot passes through.

Tifa, you are my partner now, and I want you to be there in my future. I told you before... You are the one I chose to be my partner for life. The one I chose to give my heart and soul to. No one else.
Tifa Lockhart.
The two wolves race through the snow, a black and silver blur leaving flowers in their wake.
Will you marry me?

...And when they open, he finds himself staring at two small pairs of eyes, one red, one blue, their coats a darker gray. The pups' tails wag eagerly in the air as they bark.
Dad!
Yay he's awake!
Play with us!
At first he's confused—
Dad?
Who's dad?? But he hears the soft laugh and as he's shoved over onto the side by the pups, he looks over to see the black wolf sitting nearby with a smile, her red eyes shining in delight.

His family.
Things go by in a blur. Spending lazy days together, meeting and venturing with the original pack. It seems as if it all could end peacefully like this. ...But then there's a low rumble overhead, dark shadows overtaking the once sunny area. As lightning cracks high overhead as if to shatter the once picturesque sky, the pups whine and hide beneath his legs. It's just a storm and yet there's a chill in the air that causes every single hair to stand on end. One that makes them run, run before the darkness engulfs them, run to their home where they would be safe. But—
Where is she?
—the thought blares through his mind as they dash into the cave and everything goes dark.
Rain falls. It beats on the gray wolf who sits with his head hung low, his once vibrant blue eyes dull and lifeless, tears now ice frozen on his fur. In fact there's no color at all—it's all white, gray, and black. In front of him is the black wolf lying on her side, eyes closed. A dark pool spreads beneath her lifeless body, flecks of red breaking through the monochrome. Her necklace lies in shattered pieces, the beautiful glowing moon crushed, dull. Beside him the pups whine and try to move him, but he doesn't budge. He can't. The weight of loss chains him down—
I failed.
I failed to protect her...
I killed her.
Slowly he falls forward, his head landing lightly just above hers. As the rain turns to the snow, ice crackles and forms around him. At first he still hears the pups, but when he slowly cranes his neck he can see them fade away, disappearing into the ether. Because they were never real to begin with.
They never can be real, a dark voice whispers as the snow continues to slowly bury him. None of this is.
No longer is he a wolf, but Eustace cradling Tifa's lifeless body as it slowly disappears, the snow and ice almost completely covering him as the voice becomes heavier and more oppressive as it continues.
When you wake up, you will forget it all like you did before. When she wakes up she will leave you for another.
A dream. This is all just a dream.
All it ever will be.
[It's there that the dream will cut off as Eustace jolts awake.
Note: there will be some delay before Eustace responds but he'll at least be of...somewhat calm mind if a bit more reticent and giving shorter, curt answers. ]
Sender: Susato Mikotoba
She definitely wasn't aware they had any children.
She's about to shut her journal, but then... Tifa's dead. She bites her lip, her breathing becoming shaken, and she shakes her head. ]
Eustace
[ .........Wow. What does she even say? There's a lengthy pause. ]
Are you awake? [ She has no idea how long ago that might have been or what he's even doing. ]
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I'll be fine.
[As if preempting the question that will likely be asked.]
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No, she's not. But you're still not getting rid of her that easily. ]
Apologies. I don't mean to intrude, but I had to be sure. I saw the whole thing.
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It's fine.
[Not really— Without anyone else he'd probably leave it at that, but since it's Susato...he musters the energy to add a little more.]
I appreciate the concern.
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To anyone else nosing about the journal, however--she never did. The rest of the conversation is private. ]
Did you truly ask her for her hand in marriage?
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.....No, that's not really such a surprising question and honestly he'll take it even if he's not exactly in the best moods to converse. But it's Susato—he can make exceptions.]
Yes.
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It's something happier to focus on, though she feels a little sad, too. ]
I see. That explains it.
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[YES SUSATO HE JUST GAVE HER A QUESTION MARK. Normally he'd at least give words, but she'll have to forgive his even shorter than usual responses.]
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At the beach. I asked her how your time together away from the town went. She wore a distant smile, but she said it was nice, and I remember she reached for her necklace. I'd never seen it before.
I didn't think anything of it at the time, but now it makes sense.
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Yes, it was then. The ring isn't finished, but the timing seemed...right.
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What does she say? Clearly they didn't plan to "announce" their engagement in this way, if at all. Still, it feels rude not to acknowledge it now. There's a stray mark where Susato's pressed her pen to the journal page.
Then it turns into a word. ]
Congratulations.
[ Is that appropriate right now...? ]
If you feel it was right, and she said yes, then I am sure it was perfect.
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...
Yeah idle hoping on that.
Still. As awkward as it is, this topic is much better compared to the rest of it.]
Thanks. I believe it was, but I fully intend to propose to her again later.
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[ Maybe she'll actually tell her about it then. ]
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Susato wonders, but instead-- ]
What if she gave you a ring?
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Then I would happily accept.
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Of course. Forgive me. Some cultures might find it strange if a woman were to propose. I was just curious because
[ aaaaand she...stops. Ink pooling at the end of that e. Hm. ]
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Because...?
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I gifted Kazuma-sama with a ring. [ To the point. ]
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...
OOOOH???]
Proposal?
[So many thoughts and questions are swirling around his mind now. One of which being they were together???]
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[ SHE CAN'T STUTTER IN TEXT, but the answer comes almost too quickly. She's immediately filled with a need to elaborate, but there's just... a faint question mark after the "No." ]
That [ HRRRRHGJKHD hesitation ] wasn't my intention at the time.
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[He can afford to tease her a little.]
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(No she won't.) ]
I am only 17!
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.......yeah, after thinking about it for longer than two seconds, she really doesn't have a good counterargument to this ]
Nor mine [ There's a pause like she wants to leave at that, but she adds, ] technically. But even so...
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