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001 ☁ passive dream
Sender: Cloud Strife
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death, human experimentation, deteriorating mental state
[ooc: Accompaniment music, if you so choose.]
Cloud wakes, the shirt he wears damp in a cold sweat. His breath is uneven and he cradles his head between his hands, his head throbbing in the worst headache he's had in a while.
"What the hell was that…?"
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death, human experimentation, deteriorating mental state
[ooc: Accompaniment music, if you so choose.]
Darkness surrounds you, as a dull pain throbs at the back of your skull. It pulsates over and over, and you can't help but squeeze your eyes shut even further. You're thankful for the silence, certain that noise would only further aggravate the pain
But that relief is short-lived as the quiet is quickly broken by screams of one, two—no, at least a dozen voices. Your eyes finally snap open.
The village is on fire, blistering as the smoke grows from the structures surrounding you where you stand. Before you stands a small, single-story home. You recognize it as your childhood home just as a sickening noise pierces through the air, accompanied by the shrill, terrified scream of a female voice within. The building lurches as a beam falls, sending smoke and cinders out the door. You take a step forward, but you can't bring yourself to know the truth.
From the corner of your eye, you see a glint of silver between the licks of fire. A single word falls from your lips. A name.
"Sephiroth."
Your legs begin moving before you take off toward where you need to go.---
The adrenaline travels within you as you blink the sweat out of your eyes, trying to catch your breath. Sephiroth stands before you, muttering under his breath that she—that Jenova—is the true ruler of the Planet.
You unsheath your blade, large and unwieldy, grasping the hilt tightly in your hands. Though your arm shakes in despair, in anger, in mourning, your will and thirst for revenge is unwavering.
All you can see is Sephiroth, your gaze meeting his piercing green eyes, as your body moves by its own will with the intent of cutting the man down.
The world around you is silent and darkness takes you.---
The light is blinding and you find yourself unable to fully open your eyes as you are left in a daze. The world swims around you.
But you feel it, the pain from your sides and cold metal against your back. A shiver makes its way down your spine.
There's a prick on the inside of your elbow and you move your arm, only for it to be held down against the cold surface beneath you.
You hear a mumble, a conversation between two people, but you are too out of it, unable to make out the words.
Then you feel something press against your skin, sharp as it begins to cut you open. Your mouth opens, letting out a scream before you pass out.---
You wake and you find yourself surrounded in a sea of green.
Reaching out does nothing, and for a long time, there is nothingness.
Finally, you feel something solid, your fingertips padding against it yet somehow you only see more of the same. Suddenly a pair of eyes snap open and you withdraw your hand in shock.
The eyes continue to stare directly at you, its green irises piercing and menacing, a sickening glow surrounding its cat-like pupils pulsating. It doesn't come to you at first, at least not immediately, but as you stare back you feel your mouth go bone-dry.
Bone-chilling screams, the crackling of wood and fire, the bodies falling onto the ground. The memories come back to you in an instant. You let out a scream but no sound is heard. Instead, bubbles burst from your mouth, clouding your vision as you thrash within the green liquid surrounding you.
You gasp and the liquid fills your lungs. With arms and legs flailing, you twist and turn, trying to find some kind of escape to no avail. Whispers of those who perished claw at the edges of your mind. They take hold, their grips cold and vice-like. You know in your heart they have no intention of letting go.
All the while, those cat-like, green eyes stare back at you, mockingly reminding you of your failure.
You are trapped.
Drowning.
Helpless.
The only thing that accompanies you are the bubbles reminding you of your futile attempts and the sound of Sephiroth's maniacal laughter in your ears.
The world begins to fade, as darkness swallows you once more.
Cloud wakes, the shirt he wears damp in a cold sweat. His breath is uneven and he cradles his head between his hands, his head throbbing in the worst headache he's had in a while.
"What the hell was that…?"
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[In the few moments he's left on his own, he can't help but think about how the title had lost so much meaning to him. Cloud poured out blood, sweat, and tears to earn that rank but he's had to cast it aside inspite of that. After Nibelheim, he had to, for his own sanity.
He barely hears Zack return, only looking up at him when he nudges his elbow, a glass of water in hand. Cloud manages a nod of acknowledgement.]
Yeah. Besides the glass, the rest can wait.
[It takes him another moment before he does follow Zack's suggestion to sit. Despite his earlier answer, Cloud still found himself unsatisfied by it. The other man's actions were curious to say the least and he still felt the need to say something.]
I'm not fragile, you know. I was SOLDIER too.
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But it does look a little awkward at first, given Zack's rather large stature handling the small hand broom and dust pan to get up the rest of the smaller pieces.
He doesn't even meet Cloud's gaze when he mentions being in SOLIDER, and despite his almost all-to-eager need to contribute in conversation... he remained silent.
After all he had been through tonight... it just didn't feel right to say anything. ]
Hey, everyone needs a hand from time to time... or a foot. [ He grimaces will turning to face the door again. ]
A SOLDIER's best quality is knowing your limits, and not being afraid to ask for help. [ A brief pause before he finally turns to meet Cloud's gaze. ]
... We're all in this together, right?
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He can almost hear the grimace in Zack's voice at the mention of the door, but before he can comment on it, his eyes come in contact with Zack's.
While he couldn't disagree, asking for help wasn't something Cloud was good at. Even when it seemed like it was something as simple as this. Simple, he thinks, and he almost scoffs at himself. What a joke. Everything involving Nibelheim was anything but simple.]
I wouldn't even know what to ask. [Bringing one leg up to the bed, he props his elbow against his bent knee.] It's not like you can predict dreams, right?
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Predict dreams... ugh, this conversation was really difficult to dance around. He could feel his defenses drop the more and more he talked to Cloud, and especially now with how close and real everything was becoming, Zack could only feel the pain in his chest grow stronger around his heart.
He could feel Cloud becoming more suspicious... maybe he'd have to distance himself a little? Or maybe—
A slip of his finger causes one of the shards of glass to scratch against his skin, and the SOLIDER hissed in surprised at the momentarily and sudden strike of pain he felt. ] Ouch! Ugh, alright, that's enough excitement for the both of us tonight...
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Doesn't look too bad. Hang on a second.
[Cloud had a few of his materia on him when he had arrived. Moving to his bedside table, he opens the drawer to reveal a green and red one sitting side by side. Taking the green one with him, he makes his way back over to Zack.
Without much warning, Cloud takes his roommate's hand in his, focusing on it and the healing materia. A light glow emanates from the orb, and the cut in Zack's hand begins to stitch itself closed. It might've been overkill but Cloud couldn't help but feel that maybe he was being too hard on Zack. He was trying to help him out after all, even if it was just a dream. This just so happened to be his way of saying thanks.]
How's that for funky magic?
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Hey, it's just a scratch. It really doesn't— [ The man's words quickly faded from his lips when, without protest, Cloud took his hand to heal it.
... Huh?
He could only stand there in a stunned sort of silence as he watched the familiar glow from the materia take effect, and no sooner did the pain appear before it was quickly vanished as if it had never occurred. The cut was small, nothing a small band aid couldn't handle, but for Cloud to go out of his way to do this?
Gosh, what the hell was this feeling? And why did he suddenly feel so embarrassed?? ]
Heh. "Was that really necessary"? [ He felt himself quoting Cloud's previous words, still a little shell-shocked by the gesture.
Zack was grateful, regardless, but just the urgency and kindness that was displayed so freely certainly though him through a loop. ]
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Letting out a scoff, he released Zack's hand as soon as the cure had taken effect.]
Consider it a taste of your own medicine.
[Walking back to the bedside, he returns the materia to its proper place. As he turns back to Zack, he stands there for a moment, folding his arms across his chest, lips pressing together in an unimpressed scowl. It doesn't last long as his expression softens and is accompanied by a shrug.]
And as thanks for checking up on me.
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But okay, that got him to laugh at bit. The statement alone was enough to clear up some of the lingering tension, and Zack smiles from the other side of the room. ]
Anytime. [ He means it. ] I doubt you'll be able to sleep after this, but try to get some rest, okay? Need anything else?
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Yeah, maybe later. [Then he shakes his head.] I'm fine. I know where you are if I need anything.
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[ BIG SHIT-EATING GRIN
IS HE JOKING? WHO KNOWS. ]
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But his shock fades after a moment. As soon as he composes himself, he presses his lips together in the most unimpressed glower he can muster, mako blue eyes piercing in the semi-darkness.]
I'd rather hold onto my sword.
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[ Maybe going a little overboard there, but Zack couldn't help but take the opportunity when it was right in front of him. So with another laugh the man will dismiss himself with a wave before turning and stepping out of the room.
But before he steps out completely he'll poke his head around with a smile. ]
Best friends already!
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By the time, Zack pops his head back through the threshold, Cloud's focus had returned to the doorway. How he wished he had a door to slam onto his face right now.
Instead, he settles with making his way over and pushing Zack back towards his room, a light blush still coloring his cheeks.]
Just get out already.
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[ Yup, that was all the reaction he needed as the last bit of tension in the air seemed to lift away with the push towards his room. Zack laughs, allowing himself to be forced backwards as to not embarrass him anymore than he already had. The damage had been dealt, but he was left feeling lighter than when he had first walked into Cloud's room that night.
Despite everything that the other was currently going through... he knew he was going to be okay. Whatever he was facing, the nightmares he was going through, those headaches... Cloud was a lot stronger than the situations around him. He had seen the trials he had overcome in his past, and while Cloud may still be going through the aftereffects, Zack was positive enough to know there was a good outcome at the end of all of this—
—but why, after shutting the door to his own room behind him, did a sudden and crushing wave of guilt press down against his chest.
The thoughts came in and out like the tides, and the emptiness he felt burning there caused him to lean up against the door for support. He knew he would be better in the morning, but it was nights like these when he could practically feel the mako in his throat, burning it dry. Zack didn't want to relive those moments- he didn't want Cloud to either- so maybe... just for tonight... he could also imagine it as if it was all just something their minds conjured up.
That this was all just a dream.
He would spend the rest of his night awake in his bed, trying to convince himself of just that before his own exhaustion would catch up, allowing him a brief moment of slumber. ]