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001 ☁ passive dream
Sender: Cloud Strife
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death, human experimentation, deteriorating mental state
[ooc: Accompaniment music, if you so choose.]
Cloud wakes, the shirt he wears damp in a cold sweat. His breath is uneven and he cradles his head between his hands, his head throbbing in the worst headache he's had in a while.
"What the hell was that…?"
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death, human experimentation, deteriorating mental state
[ooc: Accompaniment music, if you so choose.]
Darkness surrounds you, as a dull pain throbs at the back of your skull. It pulsates over and over, and you can't help but squeeze your eyes shut even further. You're thankful for the silence, certain that noise would only further aggravate the pain
But that relief is short-lived as the quiet is quickly broken by screams of one, two—no, at least a dozen voices. Your eyes finally snap open.
The village is on fire, blistering as the smoke grows from the structures surrounding you where you stand. Before you stands a small, single-story home. You recognize it as your childhood home just as a sickening noise pierces through the air, accompanied by the shrill, terrified scream of a female voice within. The building lurches as a beam falls, sending smoke and cinders out the door. You take a step forward, but you can't bring yourself to know the truth.
From the corner of your eye, you see a glint of silver between the licks of fire. A single word falls from your lips. A name.
"Sephiroth."
Your legs begin moving before you take off toward where you need to go.---
The adrenaline travels within you as you blink the sweat out of your eyes, trying to catch your breath. Sephiroth stands before you, muttering under his breath that she—that Jenova—is the true ruler of the Planet.
You unsheath your blade, large and unwieldy, grasping the hilt tightly in your hands. Though your arm shakes in despair, in anger, in mourning, your will and thirst for revenge is unwavering.
All you can see is Sephiroth, your gaze meeting his piercing green eyes, as your body moves by its own will with the intent of cutting the man down.
The world around you is silent and darkness takes you.---
The light is blinding and you find yourself unable to fully open your eyes as you are left in a daze. The world swims around you.
But you feel it, the pain from your sides and cold metal against your back. A shiver makes its way down your spine.
There's a prick on the inside of your elbow and you move your arm, only for it to be held down against the cold surface beneath you.
You hear a mumble, a conversation between two people, but you are too out of it, unable to make out the words.
Then you feel something press against your skin, sharp as it begins to cut you open. Your mouth opens, letting out a scream before you pass out.---
You wake and you find yourself surrounded in a sea of green.
Reaching out does nothing, and for a long time, there is nothingness.
Finally, you feel something solid, your fingertips padding against it yet somehow you only see more of the same. Suddenly a pair of eyes snap open and you withdraw your hand in shock.
The eyes continue to stare directly at you, its green irises piercing and menacing, a sickening glow surrounding its cat-like pupils pulsating. It doesn't come to you at first, at least not immediately, but as you stare back you feel your mouth go bone-dry.
Bone-chilling screams, the crackling of wood and fire, the bodies falling onto the ground. The memories come back to you in an instant. You let out a scream but no sound is heard. Instead, bubbles burst from your mouth, clouding your vision as you thrash within the green liquid surrounding you.
You gasp and the liquid fills your lungs. With arms and legs flailing, you twist and turn, trying to find some kind of escape to no avail. Whispers of those who perished claw at the edges of your mind. They take hold, their grips cold and vice-like. You know in your heart they have no intention of letting go.
All the while, those cat-like, green eyes stare back at you, mockingly reminding you of your failure.
You are trapped.
Drowning.
Helpless.
The only thing that accompanies you are the bubbles reminding you of your futile attempts and the sound of Sephiroth's maniacal laughter in your ears.
The world begins to fade, as darkness swallows you once more.
Cloud wakes, the shirt he wears damp in a cold sweat. His breath is uneven and he cradles his head between his hands, his head throbbing in the worst headache he's had in a while.
"What the hell was that…?"
Sender: Norimune
[So Norimune wrote. What an interesting dream he just watched.]
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Tell me something I don't know.
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Something you don't know? Why, there's plenty I could say. Yet I wouldn't know if you know them already.
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I'm not really in the mood for the wise guy act.
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[Fiiine.]
But this old man is rather curious about your dream, if you don't mind talking.
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Wait. Was it... Cloud?
He was going to wait until the morning- wait until he could bring it up in casual conversation and ask Cloud how he was doing or how he slept, but something in the back of his mind pushed his thoughts and legs forward as he threw them over the bed and onto the floor. Hesitantly he reaches for the crystal before taking it in his hands and peering into it for just a moment...
... Maybe he really shouldn't have looked, after all. Every scene was gut-wrenching. Every moment seeing his experiences through Cloud's eyes made his stomach turn and finding the air in the room had all been sucked away. Zack could feel the familiar sensations in his arms. The feeling of cold and liquid and heat.
He could hear it, too. Through his keen sense of awareness gifted to him as a SOLDIER, there were noises coming from the other room that seemed different from most nights.
It wasn't unlike the two of them to have nightmares, whether it was here or back home. Zack could recall many nights where he sat awake, watching Cloud flinch and squirm under the weight of his past transgressions and wishing he could do something to stop the thoughts from reoccurring. He could remember the feeling of hopelessness in those quiet hours. Trying to be a hand to settle the nerves. Wishing things had never ended up like this.
It was with those thoughts that instinctively drew Zack away from the crystal, no longer wishing to pry into those memories that were still so raw and real, and making his way to the kitchen for a glass of water for Cloud. He never knew if this was enough, but just like the many times in their past, he was going to help him get through this.
The noises from the other room alerted him to quicken his pace and in a few short moments of gathering the water he was in front of the other man's room. However... something caused him to hesitate as a hand drew up to the door. To Cloud, Zack was just an acquaintance at best. Would he find it weird that he was showing this much concern? Would it seem suspicious? Would Cloud try to distance himself further if he knew—
—a groan from the other side of the door all but dismissed his thoughts as Zack grabbed for the doorknob to open it... only to find out that it was locked. ]
Cloud!? [ He called, voice full of urgency. He gave it only a few moments, just enough to listen to the sounds beyond it, before realizing that this wasn't like most nights. Something about this dream had been worse and he needed to be in here to help. He had to protect Cloud, he—
There was no use asking permission to enter, not when he was in his state, and Zack would rather ask for forgiveness later than do nothing at all. So with a grunt the man will lift one leg up and ram against the door, pieces of wood crumbling under the weight of his blow like it was made of paper. The door all but hung loosely by its damaged hinges, and Zack was able to easily pass his way through it and into the room to search for Cloud. ]
Cloud!! [ He called again when eyes panicked upon realizing that the other man was no longer on his bed, but on the floor facing away from him.
In his shock the glass that was in his hands had slipped out and crashed onto the floor, leaving a ruined pile at the doorway before he moved through it to kneel down at the ground beside Cloud. ]
Hang in there! It's alright, I'm— [ I'm right here.
He reaches down to put a strong hand on Cloud's arm. It was happening again... those headaches... ]
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Then the headaches follow, sharp and piercing. Though he had grown accustomed to them, this pain was unlike any that he had felt in the past. But why? Why here? Why now? What had even triggered it? This had been the first one in a long while and Cloud could not place what had brought it on.
With the pain so fierce, he doesn't hear the pounding against his bedroom door, nor the sound of Zack breaking it down and the shatter of glass that follows. The pain had fully taken over, that he doesn't realize that Zack had made it by his side.
Cloud suddenly feels a weight on his arm. His first instinct is to push it off, swatting it away as he scrambles backward, only to find his back pressed against the bedframe. What the hell was that?
Slowly, his eyes begin to focus in the dark as he pants, his breath still panicked and uneven. In front of him was Zack, on his knees, hand hovering in the air.]
Zack? [It comes out as a choked sound, the distress still evident in the tone of his voice. Though his eyes are wide initially, he slowly starts to calm.] What just happened?
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The room itself was mostly dark, yet the dim light that showed through the window caught glimpses of his face as he staggered back into the bed. The look of confusion, of fear, of how scared and hopeless and small he looked.
Zack didn't allow his face to falter. He kept his jaw clenched, moving that hovering hand to the closest thing that he could reach which fell upon the boy's leg. He didn't squeeze it, mainly keeping his hand there for support. To ground Cloud back into reality. ]
Bad dream, from the looks of it. [ He kept his voice low, doing his best to conceal the worry from the cracks in his throat. He doesn't want to admit he saw most of the dream. That was a conversation for later. ] Just a dream...
[ The SOLDIER finally gives one reassuring squeeze as he pulls it back, hand still prickling from Cloud pushing him away. It didn't hurt, but the roughness and reaction pained him more than any hit could. ]
Here. [ There's a small break from the silence as Zack picks himself up from his kneeling position to stand and move to Cloud's side. ] Let's get you up from the ground.
[ He hovers above him momentarily, extending that same arm to help. Zack'll give him the opportunity to try and lift himself, but if he can't he's more than willing to assist. ]
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Then he feels the weight of Zack's hand on his leg. He doesn't understand why, but it helps somehow. Not with the pain but in trying to catch his breath, in reminding himself that it was just a bad dream like Zack said. And, strangely, it does seem to do the trick. After a few deep breaths, his mind clears, at least enough for him to take in his surroundings and recall that he was in their apartment in Reverein.
With a heavy sigh, Cloud throws his head back against the mattress.]
That was some dream.
[Cloud watches as Zack gets back on his feet, extending his hand to him, another offer to help. He doesn't take it as he attempts to get back onto his feet and back on the bed. One of his legs gives out on him under him and he reaches out to grab onto Zack's hand to regain his balance. His grip is tight as he makes it the rest of the way, nodding a quiet thanks but not looking his roommate in the eye.
He hates this feeling. This helplessness.]
Was it that bad? [He asks after another moment of silence, voice low, elbows on his knees, his hands clutched together. While he's had his own share of nightmares, there's never been one that he's found Zack at his side afterward before.]
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sender: riku
he kind of feels this one on a personal level. in a way that almost makes him feel sick.]
don't listen to anyone who tells you meditation works after high stress situations.
beating the crap out of things does.
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[He'd do it now if this headache would leave him alone. But alas, he wasn't so lucky.]
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i run, too.
[anything exercise to shift his focus and get his heart rate pumping in a way that's not blind panic.]
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[Hard not to notice Zack doing that out of nowhere sometimes.]
Just have to deal with the door first.
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Sender: Ken Amada
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[Or so he tells himself.]
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I just hope you're okay.
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sorry for the delay! had a lot to catch up on
IT'S ALL GOOD
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Sender: Eustace
That's what it'll say on the message that it's from Eustace. However, what Cloud will see are a bunch of little pawprints and ink smears first.]
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I think this just confirms you have way too many dogs.
[He's not even sure if he should expect a reply but it's too late now!]
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It's only one: Briallen. She's worried about you.
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Well, you can tell her I'm fine.
[And why is he even replying to her? He must be tired and not thinking straight.]
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walks in here 50 years late with starbucks--
The rest... it's all a blur. A muddled hole in her memories that she can never quite get back.
She expected it to follow the same path that always leads her to the end—to the very last memory of Nibelheim—but while it does take her up to Shinra manor, she's quick to figure out that this isn't her dream... but someone else's.
Everything after that... the confrontation with Sephiroth, the blinding light, the green that surrounds her... this isn't her memory. This isn't how it happened. She had been cut down by Sephiroth, but she only remembers the stark white walls of Midgar's clinic, the sound of a woman's voice calling out to her, and the confusion she felt upon waking in a whole other city... In a whole other world.
But that isn't what happens here.
Before the dream even ends, she realizes...
This is what Cloud had seen. This is what she and Zack had talked about—about how he had been there in Nibelheim when it all happened. She had meant to discuss it with Cloud but had been too afraid to. She didn't want to hit any sensitive spots, or make him close up like he always does when she tries to ask...
About how he never made it into SOLDIER in the end... and what happened after she had escaped from Nibelheim...
And she snatches her journal from the bedside table and flips it open, the quill appearing in her hands as they fumble to write—]
Cloud. Can we talk?
meanwhile, a week old reply
It isn't lost to him that Tifa was the sole reminder he had of their hometown before it was razed to the ground. But having to relive that, even though unconscious, even through a nightmare felt unfair. He didn't want her to relive that pain all over again. But it was clearly too late for what-ifs now.
After a minute or two, he begins writing his reply back to her.]
Sure. What's up?
unbelievable
Tifa's response is almost immediate, before he's even finished.]
Not through here. Let's meet somewhere?
[There are too many people who could be reading this, and more than that, this is not a conversation to be had over the journals...]
How about the café?
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I'll be right over.
[With that, he closes the journal and begins making his way to the café. It's not lost to him how it was the second time he finds himself heading there in a handful of days, especially after he'd been avoiding Tifa for so long. But he wanted to get to a place where he didn't feel as awkward around her anymore, and he knew running away wasn't the answer either.
Once he makes it to the door he knocks against it, just loud enough that it's heard by the occupants and not their neighbors.]
Tifa? It's Cloud.
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😬
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