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☁ cloud strife ([personal profile] spikyheaded) wrote in [community profile] dreamcrystals2023-05-07 02:21 pm

001 ☁ passive dream

Sender: Cloud Strife
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death, human experimentation, deteriorating mental state

[ooc: Accompaniment music, if you so choose.]

Darkness surrounds you, as a dull pain throbs at the back of your skull. It pulsates over and over, and you can't help but squeeze your eyes shut even further. You're thankful for the silence, certain that noise would only further aggravate the pain

But that relief is short-lived as the quiet is quickly broken by screams of one, two—no, at least a dozen voices. Your eyes finally snap open.

The village is on fire, blistering as the smoke grows from the structures surrounding you where you stand. Before you stands a small, single-story home. You recognize it as your childhood home just as a sickening noise pierces through the air, accompanied by the shrill, terrified scream of a female voice within. The building lurches as a beam falls, sending smoke and cinders out the door. You take a step forward, but you can't bring yourself to know the truth.

From the corner of your eye, you see a glint of silver between the licks of fire. A single word falls from your lips. A name.

"Sephiroth."

Your legs begin moving before you take off toward where you need to go.

---


The adrenaline travels within you as you blink the sweat out of your eyes, trying to catch your breath. Sephiroth stands before you, muttering under his breath that she—that Jenova—is the true ruler of the Planet.

You unsheath your blade, large and unwieldy, grasping the hilt tightly in your hands. Though your arm shakes in despair, in anger, in mourning, your will and thirst for revenge is unwavering.

All you can see is Sephiroth, your gaze meeting his piercing green eyes, as your body moves by its own will with the intent of cutting the man down.

The world around you is silent and darkness takes you.

---



The light is blinding and you find yourself unable to fully open your eyes as you are left in a daze. The world swims around you.

But you feel it, the pain from your sides and cold metal against your back. A shiver makes its way down your spine.

There's a prick on the inside of your elbow and you move your arm, only for it to be held down against the cold surface beneath you.

You hear a mumble, a conversation between two people, but you are too out of it, unable to make out the words.

Then you feel something press against your skin, sharp as it begins to cut you open. Your mouth opens, letting out a scream before you pass out.

---


You wake and you find yourself surrounded in a sea of green.

Reaching out does nothing, and for a long time, there is nothingness.

Finally, you feel something solid, your fingertips padding against it yet somehow you only see more of the same. Suddenly a pair of eyes snap open and you withdraw your hand in shock.

The eyes continue to stare directly at you, its green irises piercing and menacing, a sickening glow surrounding its cat-like pupils pulsating. It doesn't come to you at first, at least not immediately, but as you stare back you feel your mouth go bone-dry.

Bone-chilling screams, the crackling of wood and fire, the bodies falling onto the ground. The memories come back to you in an instant. You let out a scream but no sound is heard. Instead, bubbles burst from your mouth, clouding your vision as you thrash within the green liquid surrounding you.

You gasp and the liquid fills your lungs. With arms and legs flailing, you twist and turn, trying to find some kind of escape to no avail. Whispers of those who perished claw at the edges of your mind. They take hold, their grips cold and vice-like. You know in your heart they have no intention of letting go.

All the while, those cat-like, green eyes stare back at you, mockingly reminding you of your failure.

You are trapped.

Drowning.

Helpless.

The only thing that accompanies you are the bubbles reminding you of your futile attempts and the sound of Sephiroth's maniacal laughter in your ears.

The world begins to fade, as darkness swallows you once more.


Cloud wakes, the shirt he wears damp in a cold sweat. His breath is uneven and he cradles his head between his hands, his head throbbing in the worst headache he's had in a while.

"What the hell was that…?"
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-07 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It was the faint glow from the dream crystal Zack had idly sat by his bedside that caused him to flicker his eyes open that night. It wasn't unusual for it to give off a faint glow during the late hours- something about another person's dreams, from what he had gathered. He never was in the business of peering into people's business like that, so he was going to dismiss the whole thing until something seemed to poke at the corners of his half-conscious state, causing the sleepiness he once held to fade altogether.

Wait. Was it... Cloud?

He was going to wait until the morning- wait until he could bring it up in casual conversation and ask Cloud how he was doing or how he slept, but something in the back of his mind pushed his thoughts and legs forward as he threw them over the bed and onto the floor. Hesitantly he reaches for the crystal before taking it in his hands and peering into it for just a moment...

... Maybe he really shouldn't have looked, after all. Every scene was gut-wrenching. Every moment seeing his experiences through Cloud's eyes made his stomach turn and finding the air in the room had all been sucked away. Zack could feel the familiar sensations in his arms. The feeling of cold and liquid and heat.

He could hear it, too. Through his keen sense of awareness gifted to him as a SOLDIER, there were noises coming from the other room that seemed different from most nights.

It wasn't unlike the two of them to have nightmares, whether it was here or back home. Zack could recall many nights where he sat awake, watching Cloud flinch and squirm under the weight of his past transgressions and wishing he could do something to stop the thoughts from reoccurring. He could remember the feeling of hopelessness in those quiet hours. Trying to be a hand to settle the nerves. Wishing things had never ended up like this.

It was with those thoughts that instinctively drew Zack away from the crystal, no longer wishing to pry into those memories that were still so raw and real, and making his way to the kitchen for a glass of water for Cloud. He never knew if this was enough, but just like the many times in their past, he was going to help him get through this.

The noises from the other room alerted him to quicken his pace and in a few short moments of gathering the water he was in front of the other man's room. However... something caused him to hesitate as a hand drew up to the door. To Cloud, Zack was just an acquaintance at best. Would he find it weird that he was showing this much concern? Would it seem suspicious? Would Cloud try to distance himself further if he knew—

—a groan from the other side of the door all but dismissed his thoughts as Zack grabbed for the doorknob to open it... only to find out that it was locked.
]

Cloud!? [ He called, voice full of urgency. He gave it only a few moments, just enough to listen to the sounds beyond it, before realizing that this wasn't like most nights. Something about this dream had been worse and he needed to be in here to help. He had to protect Cloud, he—

There was no use asking permission to enter, not when he was in his state, and Zack would rather ask for forgiveness later than do nothing at all. So with a grunt the man will lift one leg up and ram against the door, pieces of wood crumbling under the weight of his blow like it was made of paper. The door all but hung loosely by its damaged hinges, and Zack was able to easily pass his way through it and into the room to search for Cloud.
]

Cloud!! [ He called again when eyes panicked upon realizing that the other man was no longer on his bed, but on the floor facing away from him.

In his shock the glass that was in his hands had slipped out and crashed onto the floor, leaving a ruined pile at the doorway before he moved through it to kneel down at the ground beside Cloud.
]

Hang in there! It's alright, I'm— [ I'm right here.

He reaches down to put a strong hand on Cloud's arm. It was happening again... those headaches...
]
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-07 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The shove should have been an obvious reaction to Cloud's fears. He considered it, expected it even, yet when his hand is swatted away the hole in the pit of Zack's stomach deepens.

The room itself was mostly dark, yet the dim light that showed through the window caught glimpses of his face as he staggered back into the bed. The look of confusion, of fear, of how scared and hopeless and small he looked.

Zack didn't allow his face to falter. He kept his jaw clenched, moving that hovering hand to the closest thing that he could reach which fell upon the boy's leg. He didn't squeeze it, mainly keeping his hand there for support. To ground Cloud back into reality.
]

Bad dream, from the looks of it. [ He kept his voice low, doing his best to conceal the worry from the cracks in his throat. He doesn't want to admit he saw most of the dream. That was a conversation for later. ] Just a dream...

[ The SOLDIER finally gives one reassuring squeeze as he pulls it back, hand still prickling from Cloud pushing him away. It didn't hurt, but the roughness and reaction pained him more than any hit could. ]

Here. [ There's a small break from the silence as Zack picks himself up from his kneeling position to stand and move to Cloud's side. ] Let's get you up from the ground.

[ He hovers above him momentarily, extending that same arm to help. Zack'll give him the opportunity to try and lift himself, but if he can't he's more than willing to assist. ]
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-08 04:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He wasn't surprised when Cloud didn't initially take his hand. It was a pride thing, he assumed, and much like himself he would rather get up by his own means. Perhaps it was just instincts kicking in after having taken care of Cloud for over a year at this point. He knew he wasn't the walking vegetable he remembered from when they left the Shinra Manor, but after spending all that time running from the military and dodging the Turks, he couldn't help but feel a little overprotective for his well-being (he wasn't turning into a mother hen, was he!?).

Which is why it was probably so easy the catch Cloud the moment he stumbled, his sense of panic already heightened from seeing his friend in such a sorry disposition. He'll easily assist the other onto the bed and remain standing for a moment to attempt to shake off his nerves.
]

You did end up on the floor... [ He grimaces before folding his arms to survey the space Cloud had fallen, then unto the man himself to see if he could spot any injuries on the surface level.

He didn't want to admit at first that he had looked into the dream and saw the things he did. He didn't want to relive those moments, as vividly as he remembered them. It was painful and the tightness in his chest was all too evident of that.
]

Turns out this place decided everyone needed to see it, too. So don't be surprised if you get some of those journal messages tonight.
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-08 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's a long, dark silence that follows the moment Cloud speaks. It's the constantly realization, the ever so present reminder that he doesn't remember anything that happened after the events of Nibelheim. And why should he? It was a terrible experience, one he wished he could forget, too.

Perhaps the headaches were a way to keep away those memories from resurfacing.... to block out all the pain he endured for so long. The scientists were especially interested in Cloud, given his positive reaction to the cells.

The hopelessness he felt at the time was unmeasurable, and even now...
]

Minds are funny like that, huh? Come up with the strangest stuff. [ He finally chokes out- a sort of half-spat, half sigh as he turns away from the blonde, staring hard at the ground.

He couldn't bring it up. He couldn't tell him that he was right there the whole time.
]

But hey- it was just a nightmare, right? You're not actually hurt, are you?
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-11 02:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ...It's a good thing Cloud was staring at the back of his head, because the grimace he made at the sudden realization of his actions make it almost too obvious what he did. ]

Soooo... about that. [ he turns back to the blonde slowly with a nervous gesture of his hand deep in his locks of hair. ]

Your door... it was locked, y'know? [ HE LOOKS INSTANTLY REGRETFUL ] And it sounded like you were in a lot of pain—

[ Moving his eyes to the door he frowns. Ah, and there was the glass of water, too.... ]

—I'll fix it, I swear.
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-11 03:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes!

[ Oh no those puppy dog eyes are coming out ]

... Probably.
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-16 01:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Headaches don't sound like that, Cloud.

[ He attempted to justify despite the obvious embarrassment.

Also just. Kicking a piece of wood that had shattered towards the middle of the room back towards the entrance. He's cleaning. Slowly.
]
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-18 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His nose and the edges of his ears burn with further embarrassment at the display of his strength, and it does not help when Cloud gets up to observe the damage. ]

Yeah, well, who locks their door, anyway!? There's only the two of us here! [ And he's only come in Cloud's room unannounced once... maybe twice since something here!? NOT LIKE IT WAS ON PURPOSE

He's trying to defend himself, feeling the redness in his face deepen, and tucks his hands to either side of his hips as he begins to pace.
]
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-18 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ... But then he slows down, momentarily lost in his thoughts, before: ]

I'm sorry, I just— [ as quickly as the embarrassment takes over does it begin to dissipate, his body deflating with a slump of his shoulders. Zack turns his gaze to the ground, brows furrowing.

He was protecting Cloud all this time- from Shinra, from the elements... perhaps it was just instincts (literally) kicking in
]

—if something had happened [ to you ], I—

[ Another pause. His gaze burning holes into the ground. ]

Forget it. You shouldn't be up just yet. Lemme take care of it, and I'll bring you some water, too.
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-22 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ As he reaches down to pick up another piece he finally turns his gaze to look at Cloud, trying to read his expression.

The words leave his lips as easily as his breath:
] 'Course. I have to protect my honor as SOLDIER.

[ ... Not that he could even really say he was a SOLDIER anymore, but the phrase could never quite leave him. Not after the weight it carried with it. And although his circumstances with Cloud were a different, there was very little change in how he acted from one person to another.

He'll stand to his full height then, shoulders back and a soft smile on his face before giving Cloud a small nod while finally moving in the direction towards the door. He'll go to retrieve the second cup of water then, leaving Cloud momentarily with his thoughts before he returns and hands it over. Zack will even try to coax him a bit to sit back down, nudging him slightly with his elbow.
]

... Think most of the cleanup could wait until morning?
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-05-31 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ As Cloud finally sits down and takes the water, Zack will get to work on some of the scattered glass on the floor. He was right- it would be a shame to have done all of that work just for someone to still get hurt in the process.

But it does look a little awkward at first, given Zack's rather large stature handling the small hand broom and dust pan to get up the rest of the smaller pieces.

He doesn't even meet Cloud's gaze when he mentions being in SOLIDER, and despite his almost all-to-eager need to contribute in conversation... he remained silent.

After all he had been through tonight... it just didn't feel right to say anything.
]

Hey, everyone needs a hand from time to time... or a foot. [ He grimaces will turning to face the door again. ]

A SOLDIER's best quality is knowing your limits, and not being afraid to ask for help. [ A brief pause before he finally turns to meet Cloud's gaze. ]

... We're all in this together, right?
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[personal profile] theheroics 2023-06-07 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
Guess not... unless you got some funky magic you're not telling me about. [ H half jokes, a little dryly.

Predict dreams... ugh, this conversation was really difficult to dance around. He could feel his defenses drop the more and more he talked to Cloud, and especially now with how close and real everything was becoming, Zack could only feel the pain in his chest grow stronger around his heart.

He could feel Cloud becoming more suspicious... maybe he'd have to distance himself a little? Or maybe—

A slip of his finger causes one of the shards of glass to scratch against his skin, and the SOLIDER hissed in surprised at the momentarily and sudden strike of pain he felt.
] Ouch! Ugh, alright, that's enough excitement for the both of us tonight...

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