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☁ cloud strife ([personal profile] spikyheaded) wrote in [community profile] dreamcrystals2023-05-07 02:21 pm

001 ☁ passive dream

Sender: Cloud Strife
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death, human experimentation, deteriorating mental state

[ooc: Accompaniment music, if you so choose.]

Darkness surrounds you, as a dull pain throbs at the back of your skull. It pulsates over and over, and you can't help but squeeze your eyes shut even further. You're thankful for the silence, certain that noise would only further aggravate the pain

But that relief is short-lived as the quiet is quickly broken by screams of one, two—no, at least a dozen voices. Your eyes finally snap open.

The village is on fire, blistering as the smoke grows from the structures surrounding you where you stand. Before you stands a small, single-story home. You recognize it as your childhood home just as a sickening noise pierces through the air, accompanied by the shrill, terrified scream of a female voice within. The building lurches as a beam falls, sending smoke and cinders out the door. You take a step forward, but you can't bring yourself to know the truth.

From the corner of your eye, you see a glint of silver between the licks of fire. A single word falls from your lips. A name.

"Sephiroth."

Your legs begin moving before you take off toward where you need to go.

---


The adrenaline travels within you as you blink the sweat out of your eyes, trying to catch your breath. Sephiroth stands before you, muttering under his breath that she—that Jenova—is the true ruler of the Planet.

You unsheath your blade, large and unwieldy, grasping the hilt tightly in your hands. Though your arm shakes in despair, in anger, in mourning, your will and thirst for revenge is unwavering.

All you can see is Sephiroth, your gaze meeting his piercing green eyes, as your body moves by its own will with the intent of cutting the man down.

The world around you is silent and darkness takes you.

---



The light is blinding and you find yourself unable to fully open your eyes as you are left in a daze. The world swims around you.

But you feel it, the pain from your sides and cold metal against your back. A shiver makes its way down your spine.

There's a prick on the inside of your elbow and you move your arm, only for it to be held down against the cold surface beneath you.

You hear a mumble, a conversation between two people, but you are too out of it, unable to make out the words.

Then you feel something press against your skin, sharp as it begins to cut you open. Your mouth opens, letting out a scream before you pass out.

---


You wake and you find yourself surrounded in a sea of green.

Reaching out does nothing, and for a long time, there is nothingness.

Finally, you feel something solid, your fingertips padding against it yet somehow you only see more of the same. Suddenly a pair of eyes snap open and you withdraw your hand in shock.

The eyes continue to stare directly at you, its green irises piercing and menacing, a sickening glow surrounding its cat-like pupils pulsating. It doesn't come to you at first, at least not immediately, but as you stare back you feel your mouth go bone-dry.

Bone-chilling screams, the crackling of wood and fire, the bodies falling onto the ground. The memories come back to you in an instant. You let out a scream but no sound is heard. Instead, bubbles burst from your mouth, clouding your vision as you thrash within the green liquid surrounding you.

You gasp and the liquid fills your lungs. With arms and legs flailing, you twist and turn, trying to find some kind of escape to no avail. Whispers of those who perished claw at the edges of your mind. They take hold, their grips cold and vice-like. You know in your heart they have no intention of letting go.

All the while, those cat-like, green eyes stare back at you, mockingly reminding you of your failure.

You are trapped.

Drowning.

Helpless.

The only thing that accompanies you are the bubbles reminding you of your futile attempts and the sound of Sephiroth's maniacal laughter in your ears.

The world begins to fade, as darkness swallows you once more.


Cloud wakes, the shirt he wears damp in a cold sweat. His breath is uneven and he cradles his head between his hands, his head throbbing in the worst headache he's had in a while.

"What the hell was that…?"
starshower: (temp 224)

unbelievable

[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-05 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
[She waits with bated breath for his reply, staring at her own handwriting on the page for those two minutes that seem to stretch on forever, and when she finally sees his own writing appear on the page...

Tifa's response is almost immediate, before he's even finished.]


Not through here. Let's meet somewhere?

[There are too many people who could be reading this, and more than that, this is not a conversation to be had over the journals...]

How about the café?
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-08 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
[The café is dark save for a single light that's been turned near the bar, and when he knocks, Cloud may hear her feet shuffling quickly for the door, and the sound of the bell jingling happily is such a stark contrast to the already tense air that flows out that it makes Tifa's brow furrow. Something in her throat tightens when she sees Cloud, but whatever it is, she forces it down and maintains an otherwise calm expression as she moves aside to let him through.]

Come in.

[There's a light tremble to her voice, hardly masked by the steeliness of it, and her smile turns crooked immediately as she locks the door behind them and leads him back to the bar counter.]

... Do you want anything to drink?

[Regardless of what his answer is, she's already slipping behind it.]
starshower: (temp 096)

[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-12 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
[She immediately recalls that memory, as if it had been only yesterday.]

The Cosmo Canyon?

[Looking around behind the counter, she makes a pensive face, and her hands find her hips.]

I'm sure I could replicate it. I'm thinking our newer special might be a little on the sweet side for you?

[Already, Tifa is gathering up whatever supplies she has that could recreate the drink. One, two, three, (insert ingredients here)... Into a shaker they all go for a good shake before she's pouring it into a glass and sliding it across to him.]

Give it a try.
starshower: (temp 102)

[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-15 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
[Straight to the point that she barely has time to appreciate or smile at the compliment.

Still, Tifa tries to mask her surprise as best as she can. The last time she'd asked to talk to him about things, about what happened after he left Nibelheim, and every time after that, Cloud had closed himself off. She learned not to ask anymore, or if she did, she would be more careful about it. It was clear to her that there was more to it than he was letting on, but how it would all come to light...

...

She just never imagined it would be like this. Here. In another world so far away from their own.

And all because of a dream.

Speaking of that...

She doesn't answer him at first. All he gets is a small, almost sheepish smile from her before she's pouring herself her own drink—just a small glass of water that she brings with her around to the same side of the bar as him.

... Where she takes a seat on a stool one down from his, leaving that space between them.]


I did...

[Now that she's finally here, she doesn't even know how to begin. Or where.]

I... um, saw that dream of yours.
starshower: (temp 165)

[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-20 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[She wishes the same.]

Yeah... It happens a lot around here.

[Seeing other people's dreams. She's fortunate enough that none of hers have been broadcast for the whole town to see in their lanterns, and usually, on the occasions when she does see them, she prefers to keep her nose out of other people's business, but...

This isn't just anyone because in a way, this is her memory, too.

Even if things still don't add up. Which is another reason they're here to talk. Though how to approach that, she has no idea. Not with how Cloud has been acting since they met again...]


How did you know all that happened?

[There is only one explanation for it, and Zack has already told her, but... she wants to hear what Cloud has to say.]
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-22 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
[That had been the answer that she was afraid of hearing, and her fingers squeeze around the glass so tight that she fears she might break it, so she gently sets it down instead.

Zack had confirmed it all, explained to her that Cloud had been there, but... there's so much that still doesn't add up, and it doesn't help that Tifa's own memories of the incident are foggy at best with so many holes, and all of this only pokes more. Everything she knew, or everything she thought she knew is crumbling right out from under her feet.

She wants to turn to him, look him straight in the eyes and deny it, but... as soon as she does, her throat suddenly runs dry, and the words get caught in her throat, and she needs to take another drink.]


... What exactly do you remember?

[Because now she's not sure if she's remembering things the way she thought she did.]
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😬😬😬

[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-23 04:24 pm (UTC)(link)
["Just me, Sephiroth, and a few others."

...

Tifa's brow furrows further at that. No mention of Zack? She thought that was a pretty important detail, especially considering the friendship that they seemed to forge with one another, but does he not remember him being there? Or maybe it was Zack who was misremembering?

She brings her head forward and rests it on her hand, and she takes another moment to work out how to get through this conversation. She doesn't want to bring about another one of those terrifying episodes of his, but she wants to know exactly what he thought happened back then. So, more vague questions it is.]


Just you and Sephiroth? Who were the others?
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-25 03:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[Still no Zack.

She feels her stomach twist further with dread, tighter, and she swallows back another sip of her drink to wash down the feeling.]


And it was you who went into the reactor, was it? [A pause, and she finally looks to him again.] ... Sorry. My memory's still a bit... foggy.
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-06-28 03:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah. It's fine.

[Though, her heart is telling her otherwise. Telling her to protect herself from the confusion that she knows that this will bring, and even the hurt that might come out of it later. She shouldn't be lying to Cloud about it... Tifa remembers most of it quite well, up until the fires, but if she tells him that now, then what's going to happen to him? Another headache?

Those words that President Shinra had said back in mako reactor five aren't completely lost on her, nor has she forgotten what he'd said about SOLDIERs...

For now, she's going to play along and try not to look quite as confused.]


I never did hear about what happened in there... Inside the reactor, I mean.
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-07-20 01:02 am (UTC)(link)
[It's frustrating... not being able to verify if any of what he's saying is actually true. Tifa hadn't been in the reactor when it all started... All she can confirm is that it was Zack who had gone in with Sephiroth. Or...

No, it's not even possible.

She knows that her memories of that day are fuzzy, she knows that there are so many holes and pieces missing, but she wouldn't misremember a detail as specific as that. No, she remembers being upset that she couldn't follow them inside, and then the infantryman who had been injured that she helped back...

Something clicks in Tifa's head, the gears slowly turning, but she keeps the thought to herself...]


I see...

[She feels terrible for this... terrible for doubting him and fishing for more information and forcing him to relive that night, for wanting to run to Zack to ask him if all of this is true.]

Sephiroth disappeared after that for a while, didn't he...? It was... five years, you said? What happened with him? In that reactor, I mean...
Edited 2023-07-20 01:02 (UTC)
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-07-21 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a sharp pang of fire that sears its way across her chest when he dredges up that old memory. The scar that had long since healed, barely a scar anymore, but she knows that it's there. There is one part of that evening that she will never forget, and it's the way that the steel felt as it cut through her, and the pain that she was in as her bones shattered and her body crumbled on the cold, metal grated floors.

And as he talks about Sephiroth, Tifa still can't help but think of everything he'd said before that...

A sad smile crosses her face, though never once making it to her eyes as she turns her gaze to him.]


... You did?

[She wants to believe it. She wants to believe that this is the truth so, so much, because it would mean that he had never forgotten about their promise.

But then, that would also mean...]


Cloud, I'm... sorry...
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[personal profile] starshower 2023-07-23 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
[She's sorry for a lot of things, really.

Sorry for doubting him, and still doubting him. Sorry for sitting here and questioning everything he's telling her. Sorry for talking to Zack about it without telling him. Sorry for... so, so many things. For not being able to answer the questions herself, and the ones that she knows he might have, too.

Her shoulders rise and fall in a sigh, and after a few more seconds of eyeing him with an apologetic smile, she drops her gaze back to her glass.]


... I didn't know.

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